I’ve always worn a mask
Shown the best parts of me
Hiding the pain
Not talking about the negative
Shining a light on the positive
I’m the helper, not the needy one
I don’t like how this feels
If I’m going to give in and be seen, my guard has to come down, my armor shed off. I just don’t know how to do this yet.
I look around at my house from this point of view of sadness today and I’m mad at myself. I’m the one who is supposed to bring the life to it, the meals, the celebrations… where has she gone? Will she come back? I feel guilt and want to begin to pretend again. Who will that benefit? How long will this last until she’s back?
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I am a mother of 3 and a loving wife to my husband for the last 27 years! We have a 26 yr old son who has graduated college, he is engaged and is very happy in his new career. We have a 23 yr old daughter who did 3 years of college and has moved home pursue her small business dream in our home town. Our youngest son is 21 yrs old and is living at home after going one year to college, it just wasn’t for him, he is working and thriving. Parenting has been my entire life until now, we are in the next phase of life, learning to enjoy life with my husband again and creating a new life with our adult children. I enjoy writing, it brings clarity in this often crazy world. I like to simplify and slow down ~ I am enjoying and figuring out the journey of my life.
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